I am new here, and I have been with my husband 26yrs I dont think he ever Loved me,and the relationship has always been one of abuse emotional pretty much called every name in the book except my name and physical I wont get into alot of details but I have had my jaw broken several times by him I have been kicked,punched,after being on DS for a little over a month I am getting everything around to leave him,not a easy thing because I will have to leave pretty much everything I own.. my problem is I keep feeling guilty..I mean very guilty, I keep thinking of stuff like he will be all alone for the rest of his life and that would be my fault,or I will think of the few times that he was kinda nice to me..stupid stuff like that.. why does everything keep comeing back to me..will this guilt go away once I leave or will it just keep eating away at me?????
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