Really will need help this week...This is THE WEEK. I will be signing my divorce papers this week. I talked to the lawyer on Thursday and she said she had one more paper for me to look over then she would call me again at the first of the week. She said she would send all the paperwork back to STBX's lawyer and then if we both agreed them all I would have to do is sign the signature pages and fax them back to my lawyer. Once they are signed I am divorced. I don't know how I am going to be able to sign those papers. I have always been scared to sign legal papers. Even signing new car papers, mortgage papers, etc. always scared me. Now I am signing papers I don't even want to sign. This will be the end of 37 years of marriage. How am I going to be able to sign them and fax them back? I don't want to do it but if I don't I have to go to court on Feb. 6. On top of all of this my husband who I have not talked to in weeks calls me this morning to let me know he has not forgotten about fixing the gate on the fence. Why did he have to call today? Why not after I signed the papers? All it did was upset me. Just hearing his voice about did me in. Of course he was all business when he called and never said anything comforting or nice. Not one nice thing to me since he left. Would it have killed him to say goodbye to me? Would it have killed him to say he wished me the best. I've spilled my guts out to him over the past few months and yet he can't even say one nice thing to me before I sign the papers. Why are they so cruel? I was doing fairly well up till his call. Now it all starts over again. I can barely type I am so upset. I feel like I need to throw up. Sorry, but that is how I feel. I'm so afraid I am going to totally lose it when I HAVE to sign the papers. If you guys can remember, please keep me in your thoughts and prayers all this week. After this week, it will be over. Ackkkkkk! I'm so scared.
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