It's been a few weeks since I joined. I have really enjoyed the support but have stayed mostly in the background reading others posts and gaining strength from you all. I've gone through various stages in the last few weeks. Devastation, disbelief, heartbreak and now I find myself just being angry. My husband was home this weekend (he works 7 hours away). He hasn't been here in 3 weeks and during that time we haven't had much contact (my choice). My 19 year old son doesn't really care anymore. My 16 year old daughter is growing away from him at a very quick pace. He is so distant from our family unit right now. I look at him and feel nothing but extreme dislike...bordering on hatred. Couldn't wait for him to leave to go back to work this afternoon. He put on a show for my parents, like all was right with the world and then acts like a huge ass when no one is around. Oddly enough I have discovered that I will be better off financially when we are divorced. I wonder how it is possible to hate the person you have loved so dearly for 28 years???
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