You can't give up.... is there no other way for you to get to work? Can you call family? a friend.. you need to calmly sit down and think..... can you move.....Please please stay and read the boards.... we are all here to support one another...no one else is this frigging world seems to care about us.... except people going through the same sh_t.....hugs..

Shaya, sorry to hear all of that. I am BP and alcholism seems to go along with all of that. its the same as anyother thing that he needs to admitt it first. i know that stbx doesnt belive in my BP, but my doc says i have it. it takes strength to live with someone with BP, and if hes drinking it makes it worse. i know what u r going thru, i am living it everyday. if u need me i am here. u can chat with me on yahoo...it seems like im always on...

Shaya, In this site we help eachother. Don't be ashamed or reluctant to share your problems. The people here are at all different stages of marital problems and you will get all the support you need. We are here to help where we can. If you need something just ask.
Mike

I am not giving up on life. I am just giving up on him. I have plans to leave but I have to wait until June before I will have enough money to move. As for family I have no family here they all live in another state. My friends are his friends and right now I don't know who I can trust because of things he is telling me that they tell him. Now weather or not they are telling him things or not I don't know because when I question them on it they say they didn't say that or they are getting tired of it and don't want to be in the middle which I can't blame them.

Shaya...you found it. This is what we do. You find so much support here. I am an alcoholic. I have done some pretty awful things to my fiance. We are working through it. It took for me to admit my problem and he has been here to support me. I had to take a step back and look at what I was doing to the people that I love. I guess that what I am trying to say is that you have to figure out if you are willing to hang in there and he needs to make a choice on what he wants. I always wondered that. If your not happy with what you have then either choose to fix it or move on. Why do we live miserably? And there are so many of us that do. We just deal.

Sounds to me like your miserable as hell. Maybe it's time to turn to yourself and less to your husband. He has obvioulsy done this himself already. If he does not admit to his illness then you have to ask yourself are you willing to live like this for the rest of your life? Course I dont belive I am saying anything your not already asking yourself.
What I suggest tonight tho is draw a warm bath soak and think, screw tommrow deal with this as it comes, not much you can do about it anyway.
I wish you the best of luck boo and nothing less.

I agree with Mechanic. Focus on yourself. Sounds like you need it sweetie. Worry about yourself because someone has to.