We are just starting the divorce, thanks to my husband. He has chosen alcohol over me, sought out another women behind my back, has verbally abused me and my daughters. He refuses to help pay for our mortgage, we are now going into foreclosure. He gets served this Wednesday with a motion for him to vacate the property during the divorce, I had to do that because he refuses to leave. Now the sick part, I am dreading him leaving. I can't stop loving him. I have never felt this much pain in my life. I know that he has told me it is over, he hates me. But I still find myself loving him. Once he is out of the house, then I won't know where he is, is he with her? what is he doing? These feelings are literally killing me. Why am I so upset and still love him after all the horrible things he has done?
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