I was with the same guy for 5 yrs and everything was going good ok it wasnt i was phyical and mental abused and tell my son was born i was with him and ignored what other people were tell me to do which was get out. I listen the day my son was born in 2005 i have had relationship since then but it doesnt seem to go away of the pain i went though 5 yrs of abusive I have gotten help but i cant get thought that what i have put up with and gone though i am just so sick of a wall being up. I push men away because i am afaird of being hit, recently i start speaking my mind and how i feel it feels good but i feel me speaking my mind is pushing my current boyfriend away, he says i am too moody and have a attitude it is also hard sice i lost my big brother who knew how to help me and who knew what i have been though!
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