I have been with my husband for 12 years. We were married for 7 of those years. We starting dating when we were 15 needless to say we have had our hard times maturing together through out those years. We have a 3 year old son who is the love of both of our lives. We seperated 2 years ago. It was my choice, I felt as though I needed to space and time to see if I was really in love with my husband or if the love I felt was the love you felt for a best friend. I now feel as though I have determined that it was the love of a best friend, but I am having such a hard time with this. Typing this I feel as though I could vomit, I feel as though I am going to be so lost without him in my life. When I think about him with another woman it makes me crazy....but yet I don't want to be sexual with him and when we are togther it is very boring. It is so hard because he is still my best friend and I care so much about him. He does not want this to happen but yet does very little to show me how much he needs me in his life. I feel like I need to hear him say "please don't do this to us, I love you and need you in my life, etc." but he doesn't. He is just letting this happen. He says it is because he doesn't want to put himself out there for me just to turn around and get divorced anyways....what do you all think??? I am so torn!
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