i called my friend to see what he was doing this wonderful saturday nite he said he is having dinner w/sum friends i immidiately got a weird feeling im like whos all there? he quickly said he'll call me later and tell me. over the phone...i heard my exs voice and a girl laughing. over and over it plays in my head, i smile and i said ok ill talk to you later. its all still fresh even if its been a couple months. it just rung in my ear...good to hear hes having fun...always had i guess i just had to confirm it. fucking hurts you know? ne wayz i just wanted to put this out here..if you all understand this feeling thnx.
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