Time seemed to stand still at times. The time that we have been apart made me think about my self and what's important to me. Happiness, love, affection, loyalty, friendship, joy, honesty, and trust have stuck with me. I know she wasn't perfect and niether was I. Even though I am confused about the current situation I do know one thing. I miss the good times that we shared. I try not to think about the bad times because it's too dark. I remember when we would laugh together, cried together, and shared intimacy. I can close my eyes and feel her touch. It's so loving, tender, and caring. I can hear her voice saying I love you. Sometimes laying to sleep at night I imagine she is there. I long to touch her and tell her that I love her so much. Yes we had good times and they must count for something. I wish she would call me more just to say hi or I miss you. I know she is in pain too and if she lets me I can take that pain away. I have had many women hurt me and I never could forgive them. She is different, I can forgive her and give her that second chance that many do not get. I know I want that second chance. Yes I may think some evil thoughts once in awhile but, I am human and that is normal. I will never make false accusations against her. The will power I have to win back her heart is strong. I have never been so sad before in my life until now. I must have cried an ocean in the last 5 months. I have never talked to god every five minutes untill recently. No Matter if we see eye to eye on many things we do see it on one thing. Love. We still love one another and that says alot. If this isn't true love then why would I fight so much? I see the sun starting to rise. I am happy when I am around her and that is what I want back. Yes I say that she is my true love and the cure for my broken heart. I hope she sees this and knows that I am thinking of her right now.
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