I went out today and stayed gone for almost 4 hours (WAY better than staying home crying all day!). I have been having so many panic attacks during the night that I bought an alarm clock that plays CD's hoping to try some soothing sounds to calm me down. I went tot eh bookstore to look for some relaxation tapes. The clerk who directed me to where they were was SO nice & SO interesting! She told me she was a nurse in Germany and mostly cared for terminally ill people and whatever my source of anxiety was that it was not worth tearing up my physical, emotional and mental health over it. She had so much good advice for me, I was tearing up when she was talking to me, but she really stressed how all of this stress adn worry that is making the anxity and panic can just be minimized and let go, she really made sense and had a very cool accent. Do you ever wonder if people cross your path for a reason? I do!
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