Thinking about how much time I am spending today being sad and reminding myself of some of the more recent hurtful and unkind things he has done or said and also trying to guess at how much OW was involved in adn behind some of those recent acts of unkindness. Stbx is such a foolish man. Always has been. A foolish addict. I watched most of a movie yesterday called "Longford" about a British earl who advocated for prisoners, one in particular that really screwed him over and made him negatively famous for quite awhile. Leaving aside some of his more disagreeable politics, one way to focus on the movie was to look at how he was able to spend his life pursuing a path of "forgive the sinner and hate the sin" -- I don't think I'll ever be that good! But I am wondering if forgiving stbx and OW would be helpful to me. I don't know how to do it, of course, but I would like to forgive the sinner but still get to hate the sin. As close to forgiving them as I can get is to think of them as pathtic sick creatures who are blessedly far away from me now. But then I start wishing them the same paion they ahve caused me and that is not very nice of me. I will think about forgiveness today.
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