I've given the man in my life 15 years of everything I have, mind, body and soul, we live together, we're not married, we've had good and bad moments, I'm not easy to live with by any means, but if the worse thing I can do is yell, then I think he's ahead of the game considering ex-wife cheated on him. All I've ever wanted is what's best for us, a good life, to do well, to be able to have the things we want and I have worked hard for that, I have worked my f**king a** off for that, and now he comes to me and tells me he does not want me me, or the relationship anymore, that he's tired of the yelling, nevermind that he's the one responsible for it half the time, and that I'm not attractive to him in the least bit. I don't know what to do, he mentioned therapy and I went, and found someone and told him about it and I still have not gotten a response. He is avoiding me in the house right now, and is not speaking to me, unless he has to, which he is fixing so he does not have to. He came home at 1 a.m. last night, I don't know if he's just blowing off steam, and pointedly trying to hurt me, but he's succeeding, my heart is broken and devastated - I couldn't feel any worse than I do right now. I know I yell at him, I know I can be moody, pissy and bitchy, but it's usually a response to something, it's not aare to be obtained.itrary, I've made mistakes I embrace that but I don't think the punishment I am getting fits the crime that I have apparently committed, which is to what more for us. I love him with everything that I am, letting go of him once 8 years ago, for a similar episode was the hardest thing I have ever done, and I swore I would never do it again, but he swore he had gotten therapy for his own issues and that we were going to get married, and things would be different, completely and they were for awhile, until he turned 40, then all hell break loose, he made my life miserable for 6 months and it seems the pattern is repeating itself again now, and I'm falling apart. He tells me he loves me, but that he does not like me. I don't know what to do with that. I just don't know what to do to fix this, and get him to open up to me and want to fix this together. Therapy was a mutual idea, I found someone have an appointment set for Friday, told him about it and he still has not responded. Why is he doing this to me, I can understand a midlife crises I went through it before when he turned 40, and understood it could happen again with someone with severe ADD and peter pan syndrome, but this is ridiculous, you just don't throw away 15 years because the woman in your life screams at you when she has good reason to.
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