Hi There, My name is Pam. This is the first time I have posted anything personal anywhere online. I am here because I am not sure where to go or who to talk too. I do not feel my family would be a good place to vent, and I do not want to vent on my friends either. I have been with my husband now for 13 years and we have 2 children. My son is 7 and my daughter is now 8 months. I am a stay at home Mom for now but used to teach overseas and used to write. Something has changed in the last 2 years with my marriage that I do not know what to do with, My husband is ten years older then me and I keep thinking he is going through some mid-life crisis or something. He used to be very kind, generous and loving. For the past 2 years he has become angry, mad, frustrated, off in his own world, and disrespects me all the time. It seems to be getting worse and worse. I used to fight back but now I just leave the room when he starts yelling. He has called me ugly names in front of my kids and has slept in my sons room for almost a year. We have been intimate maybe 2 times in the last year. I feel like I am walking on egg shells all the time because it seems anything sets him off. He is using intimidation, threats, and has almost gotten physical a couple of times. He has thrown things, left many times and all over the most menial of things. He say's it's my tone or attitude etc. I have asked him to talk a few times but once I bring up our marriage, he rolls his eyes, and says..."oh are we going to talk about that again....he gets defensive,, starts to rant and ends up swearing at me before I can even get anything out. I don't know whats wrong with him. I know there is no other woman and I know he loves me but I do not feel I can take this much longer. My son is suffering from this as my husband wakes him up at night when yelling at me. Last night it was over the baby crying and waking him up. I asked him for help, to which he told me where to go. I am in no position to leave him as I do not have a job at the moment and we just bought a house last year. I feel like I am stuck and really don't know what to do. I also want to do whats best for my children and do not want them to go through any suffering. My husband dotes on his children. I actually feel sometimes that he is only with me because he loves our kids and wants our house. I certainly do not believe he is here for me. Anyway there is so much more but I must get ready for the day. I have to pick up my son from school. Thanks for the Vent, Pamela
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