My divorce will be final April 12. 3 short weeks. I feel i am divorcing my best friend, my soul mate. I guess many people go to court thinking that. My stbx makes it no easier for me by telling me that sometimes he does not think he can go thru with it. He has been living with OW for months. He says that you never know how life can work out in the future that some people end up back together. Now i do realize that part of this divorce is from Mid life whatever but how can a man that has caused me so much pain say this because 1. he really is messed up in the head- i do tend to believe this as he says right now he feels numb-nothing that he really is not happy and that he is sorry he ruined all of our lives and our plans. 2. is he thinking that because he knows that i still feel for him that i will be waiting in the wings forever until he figures out what he wants or waits to see how things will work out for him. One makes him very shallow, one more going thru som painful transition and to me i guess either way it does not matter. What matters is that i take control of my own life and not look for what's going on in his. I have to get down to the nitty gritty of finding my own way and learn to make myself happy content fulfilled. In my heart of hearts a small voice says one never knows what could happen-after all his searching he could come to realize the diamonds of his life really were in his own backyard all along. Do these things really happen. Somehow i know that in human nature-once we do let go and move on and create a different life-there usually is no turning back. It's a stumbling block for me. Anyone feel like this at times?
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