I'm feeling very self-conscious about things I do. My stbx was very cold to me for the last 3 months or so and picked at everything about me. Now when I'm with other people, I am overly aware of my behaviors and frustrated that I keep doing the things he complained about. I dawdle a LOT, I chatter too much, I tend to say the wrong things at the wrong time.... I never used to be self-conscious like this. My stbx never told me about how much I bothered him until at the very end and I find myself feeling hurt that he must have been hating being around me for such a long time and I was so oblivious to it. He used to seem patient and I had the misguided notion that he actually loved me for who I am. It is painful to realize that I didn't really know him. My friends tell me that he had a lot of guilt (from the cheating) that built up and turned into resentment towards me and the problem was his... but I can't help feeling like this. I feel self-conscious and question my own judgement... It's not healthy and I don't want to be like this. Is this a "normal" phase to go through when you're getting a divorce?
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