My husband of 11 years left me and our 2 children (3 & 6 years old) on June 8. I want to go to counselling & reconcile, but he thinks that we are beyond that point. He said that he doesn't love me anymore. He says that it's because I'm so negative. I agree that I am negative, but he hasn't been the ideal husband either. Regardless, I depserately want to work things out because I love him. I saw him today for the first time since he left when he came to take the kids out for dinner. I became completely & overwhelming depressed & was sobbing so hard that I thought I may throw up. He wasn't an asshole, but he calmly packed up some of his things & left. He seemed to be so ok, so fine with things. How can this be happening to me? To my family? If it weren't for my 2 beautiful children, I think I would be suicidal. I found myself staring at our gas oven today & imagining putting my head inside. Of course I won't, would never do that to my children, but that is shattered & broken I am feeling. I don't want to be alone forever. I want to stay married to the man I thought I would grow old with. I love him & want him to love me too. He agreed to go to a counselling session with me, but he made it clear that he didn't see how we could get to this point & ever make it work again. I want another chance to be a better wife. I want my best friend back. How does anyone ever survive this pain?
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