I'm dealing with my first unrequited crush after separating from my ex-husband and my feelings oscillate from numbness to utterly broken. I'm terrible at dating. I can't manage to develop feelings or even interest in someone unless I've known them for some time. So when I fell for a friend, I immediately knew I was in trouble because of the long road I had to take to reach that point.
But I know he doesn't feel the same way - or even close to having any sort of curious interest - and I honestly feel helpless. And it's affecting everything I do. I can't focus or escape my depression. I spend most of the day trying not to think about him or the fact that he, like my husband, just doesn't want me.
I'm so incredibly lonely. I haven't been hugged or touched in so damn long and I have nobody to talk to about this. I feel like every day I'm drowning in this and sometimes it's just too much.
I guess I'm just wondering if anyone has gone through some deep attachment after a major split and how you managed to deal with it. Because right now I'm struggling to find a point to anything anymore.
Thanks for letting me vent. I know this all sounds dramatic, but I'm really at a loss here.
I posted in another group about particular life issues going on and everyone is all "you can help yourself" "do this or that" like I haven't looked at my options. Everyone thinks everything can be fixed or will get better. If I've learned anything in my 26 years its that life doesn't get better for everyone. Not everything is temporary. Suicide happens for a reason.
anyone there? anywhere?