I'm dealing with my first unrequited crush after separating from my ex-husband and my feelings oscillate from numbness to utterly broken. I'm terrible at dating. I can't manage to develop feelings or even interest in someone unless I've known them for some time. So when I fell for a friend, I immediately knew I was in trouble because of the long road I had to take to reach that point.
But I know he doesn't feel the same way - or even close to having any sort of curious interest - and I honestly feel helpless. And it's affecting everything I do. I can't focus or escape my depression. I spend most of the day trying not to think about him or the fact that he, like my husband, just doesn't want me.
I'm so incredibly lonely. I haven't been hugged or touched in so damn long and I have nobody to talk to about this. I feel like every day I'm drowning in this and sometimes it's just too much.
I guess I'm just wondering if anyone has gone through some deep attachment after a major split and how you managed to deal with it. Because right now I'm struggling to find a point to anything anymore.
Thanks for letting me vent. I know this all sounds dramatic, but I'm really at a loss here.
Hello, my name is Maryam. I have been on this site for a while, but this is my first post. My family lacks communication. On the surface we look very close, but in reality everyone is in their own little corner dealing with their own shit. One of my older sisters got married and didn’t tell anyone, I didn’t find out my dad had prostate cancer until months after he started receiving treatment....
which is making me nervous. She is studying for her nursing finals this week. I want to hang out with her and talk but she is so nervous that she is screaming at me for so much as looking at her! I made her some eggs and toast so she didn’t have to stop studying to eat. Just have to hang in till tomorrow night and then she will settle down