i just can't get over this anxiety of wondering about him, my family and friends have their lives and are tired of me crying all the time, i am having a hard time taking care of my kids cause i feel bad all the time. i just cant get over all the stuff that my ex has put me through this past month, i really thought me and him would get married one day, we have a 3 year old which he doesnt care about. i just feel like i am soo alone and that i am fending for myself through this bottomless pit that i cant get out of mentally and financially. every day i get advice from people and on here and i feel good like for a day or two then i go wayyyyy downhill. like i want to cry all the time. i go to counseling and i take meds and i still feel bad. i think the only thing that would make me happy is if my ex did a 360 and came to me and told me he is so sorry for everything he has done and cant live without me and will change like with not drinking and lying to me and stuff. right now hes with "her" and her kids and he should be with me and my kids treating me like he's treating her. i just know hes being all nicey nice to her and her kids because his relationship is so new with her and thats how our relationship started but then it changed. but what if he is always going to treat her good and is gonna be the dad he should be to her kids and wont to his own baby??? these are questions that i cant get out of my head. i keep myself busy and it doesnt help. i dont know what to do anymore seriously, i need help i think. tell me what you think..
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