I drove home tonight feeling frightened -- my bookkeeper was at the business this afternoon and into the evening and the reality of what stbx had been doing with the business finances is so disturbing -- and I sure don't know all of it (yet). It jsut has left me with a very frightened feeling. Like how could I have been living like that, I feel like the fox was in the henhouse and I did nothing. I am fine now, recovering financiallly, and hope to bring the business out of the problems by workig hard for a year or so, but it just frightens me on some level that I trusted and was so deceived (on so many levels, this is just one). The red flags have been up for at least one year, but I chose to ignore them. I feel so foolish and like I screwed myself over. And how could I have lived like a wife to someone so clearly intent on deceiving me adn ripping me off? My faith in myself is like really shakey right now or something.