I am in the devestation/dying phase. I figured that one out. woohooo Go me! Some days I say this is for the better, he cannot control me anymore or verbally abuse me, other times like last night I break down. The way in which he left was probably worse, cause he didnt just leave, he kept saying I love you lets work this out, staying the weekends with me, Making love all weekend. Then it was Wham! I give up I want a divorce. So esentially I had to go through the same phase twice. Now I cannot even see him. (saw him this morning in the driveway (sigh) I think he is cruel and mean, but for some reason I still love him. (shrug) I cannot wait until this phase passes, cause I want peace again. But thanks to everybody..knowing I am not alone helps a great deal.
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