no you were not stupid for letting the wall down, i think you did the right thing, you tried and now you know. you said it yourself, in six months he'll be back, but you won't be in the same place again. stop beating yourself up, flip side, if you didn't try you would never know and probably think what if i .... i give you a lot of credit and a high five. now you don't need the wall anymore it can stay down. there are no more what ifs with this relationship for you. be strong. hang in there. you did the right thing.

I'm with Chrurop! If you hadn't tried, you'd always second guess yourself, and healing would take forever. Now you know you've done everything you can. You are not the problem, he is! As my best friend says: "He's shown you who he is, you must believe him." Keep the faith!

Don't be too hard on yourself. You tried to give him every chance, but it sounds like he is stringing you along. You're the fall back. He knows he can always come back to you. Good for you to work up some righteous anger.

It really sounds like you did your part and he won't do his. Give yourself credit for stepping up to the plate because you answered your questions and it will help you with closure.

Been there, done that, I don't regret it either! I can look in the mirror and say I tried, I really tried. He will NEVER be able to do that!

I think you would have been second guessing yourself always if you didn't try again. You now know it's time to take care of yourself and get yourself together. Be proud of yourself because it was a hard hard decision to try again. YOu gave it your all... stand tall and take your first step to taking care of you now! HUGS!