I am in the process of trying AGAIN to get out of a bad relationship , but for some reason I feel soo lost when we're apart. I am being honest with myself by admitting that. anyone who knows me or has met me wouldn't believe that but I just feel completly lost in the world. I feel sooooo guilty becuz i have kids & that should center me & I feel horrible admittin it but when we;re apart I literally don't know what to do. I will do things with the kids but for some reason I feel like i;m out of place or just feel like i don't know what i;m doing. I feel that from few things i read that i am an extreme codependent & I have focused soo much on my dysfunctional partner & their problems & our relationship that it is all I have. I want to be a good mom & I don't want to just go through the motions i want to feel that me & my kids are enough & i want to feel content with it being just us . I know it would be easy to trash me but I am being honest because I want to change. I WANT with all my heart to be one of those women that are content with themselves & do not NEED someone to feel whole.
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