IT SEEMS LIKE I BEGIN TO MANY SENTANCES WITH THIS LINE... MY HUSBAND AND I ARE SEPERATED AND PROBOBLY WONT GET BACK TOGETHER. HE IS GOING TO PRISON FOR WRITING BAD CHECKS. HE WROTE THE CHECKS DUE TO A DRUG ADDICTION. I CANT SEEM TO WALK AWAY FROM HIM. I KNOW IM BEING STUPID FOR NOT WALKING COMPLETLEY AWAY, I JUST FOR SOME REASON CANT! MY HEART BREAKS EVERYDAY FROM PAIN OF MISSING HIM AND OUR LIFE TOGETHER. I CANT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT WE WONT GROW OLD TOGETHER. HE WAS MY "HAPPILY EVER AFTER" EVERYDAY I WILL SIT AND THINK THINGS LIKE, "RIGHT NOW WE SHOULD BE AT WALMART SHOPPING" OR "RIGHT NOW WE SHOULD BE LAYING ON THE COUCH TOGETHER" AND THEN I START TO CRY. I FEEL LIKE A FOOL AND VERY WEAK THAT I STILL SEE HIM AND TALK TO HIM EVERYDAY. WHY DONT I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO LET GO??? MY QUESTION IS ABOUT OUR 17 MONTH OLD DAUGHTER. IT BREAKS MY HEART THAT SHE IS GOING TO GROW UP WITHOUT A FATHER. I WANT HER TO HAVE THE WONDERFULL EXPIERANCES LIKE I DID AS A CHILD. SHE HAS MY DAD BUT THATS NOT THE SAME. I FEEL LIKE SHE GOT CHEATED! MAYBE SOMEDAY I WILL REMARRY BUT EVEN THEN, HER STEPFATHER WONT LOVE HER AS IF SHE WERE HIS OWN DAUGHTER, AND THAT KILLS ME. I HAVE A STEPDAUGHTER THAT I LOVE VERY MUCH BUT THERE IS A BIG DIFFERANCE BETWEEN THE LOVE I HAVE FOR HER AND THE LOVE I HAVE FOR MY DAUGHTER. MAYBE THATS ONE OF THE REASONS I WANT MY HUSBAND BACK SO BAD, FOR MY DAUGHTERS SAKE. I HATE HIM FOR DOING THIS TO ME, AND I LOVE HIM AT HE SAME TIME
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