It's time for me to wake up! For the past month I have been kidding myself by pretending that I didn't love my wife any more. Reality for me is I still do. I am so stupid because she hurts me almost everyday. I was willing to forget about the affair and give her that second chance. It never worked out and not sure why. I have came to one conclusion................. People fall in love easier than falling out of love. No matter what you may say down deep there's still love for them. If they have hurt you and you could see a change in them then, I would bet that many people would give them a second chance. Maybe for me anyways. I really thought my love for her went away like a bad nightmare. Today, I realized that my anger is with me because I still love her. This is normal, and I realize this. I also realized that falling out of love is much harder than falling in love. When we fall in love it's new and some people get attached to people easily. The sad part is when you truly love someone they become a part of us and not having them takes a part of us away. We walk around feeling empty, lost, confused, blank, etc.... I still feel like there's something missing. When we talk I just want to scream and say are you stupid? You had a man that truely loved you and you threw it away. I believe that true love comes by once in a life time. Yes we may find love again but, the first true love is different. It's a feeling that can't be replaced. We just choose to accept the second love and live our lives. This is just my 2 cents.
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