I met my boyfriend in january of this year via facebook, we chatted and got on well, it was kind of a shock to find out he was only 24, (im 41) he was worried i wouldnt want to know, but i thought i like him and vice versa so why not. After lots of emails and texting we met up, got on well, he explained to me that he had found his ex girlfriend in bed with his best friend, after they had split up, and was still very angry about this and wanting revenge, i listened and reassured him, he also told me his mum had walked out on the family, and his dad was in bits after his girlfriend had walked out too,somedays he was so sweet and thoughtful, others so angry and aggressive, and telling me to leave him alone, when i offered to help, this went on, his nan passed away and his moods were worse, tho we always said night to each other, i met his friends and we had nice nights out a couple of times, anyway i said im here for you when you need me.. we had arranged on thursday to meet friday evening, when he rung me on said evening to say he wasnt coming and we were over, the old its not you, its me routine, i was so hurt, tho i said i understood and hoped we could be friends still, he said he couldnt be in an intimate relationship with a woman at the moment, i feel so gutted, i was there for him, he showed feelings to me that he liked me too, i hurt so much, i miss him, i stayed up all night, today he had written on facebook that he was feeling guilty and worse than he should feel??? why is he hurting me more like this, i never hurt him, never any pressure, why am i such a stupid mug, am so tempted to text him, but know il get hurt more, he texted me goodnight and hugs last night, i didnt answer... this is so soon to be feeling this way again aftre my last relationship ended in november, far too soon..
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