My boyfriend of almost one year broke up with me yesterday.
I am heartbroken despite the fact that he was very unhealthy for me and being out of this relationship is probably the best thing that could have happened.
He lied to me regularly about his drug and alcohol habbits. Broke up with me unexpectedly. Abused my trust repeatedly. We were working on things and he called me and told me we were done.
Im relieved but still hurting and have no idea how to process what I am feeling. Logically I am able to remind myself that my life will be better without him and that I deserve better.
But I am still hurting. A lot. I want to stop hurting.
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