My boyfriend of almost one year broke up with me yesterday.
I am heartbroken despite the fact that he was very unhealthy for me and being out of this relationship is probably the best thing that could have happened.
He lied to me regularly about his drug and alcohol habbits. Broke up with me unexpectedly. Abused my trust repeatedly. We were working on things and he called me and told me we were done.
Im relieved but still hurting and have no idea how to process what I am feeling. Logically I am able to remind myself that my life will be better without him and that I deserve better.
But I am still hurting. A lot. I want to stop hurting.
live life for you and do things you love despite rejection, drowning in depression and the fact that youll never really have constant happiness or even succeess. But atleast if you do what makes you happy, you will feel happy now and thats what matters.the last few days - I was in such a dark place that I was invalidating my worth, making myself so miserableBut Im trying to turn the tide, and ...
lately things have been going pretty smooth , low anxiety, minimal depression . but then tonight at wark an incident came up and i thought all was well. then the boss calls at quitting time and i went into panic mode. i just want to scream ARGH. i hope and pray all will be ok. i get worried cause i fell like i messed up and get really critical about my self. ... so for now i worry and try to...