I have accepted the relationship ending (he's an a$$), but now that I am (at least not in the last few days) dealing with pain in my heart, I have an overall sensation of being pissed at what he did to me and how he without any thought took from me and danced away without any trace of remorse for his actions. I am really sick of him being in my life through my thoughts and feelings. It sucks, he did enough and I wish I could do something to not let the memories and thoughts steal any more of my time. When does this end? Just how long does this crap take? I am sick of having revenge fantasies and kicking myself for having them. I think I hate worst of all the bad feelings I have from knowing the jerk.
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