Driving home tonight I had time to think about some things. Do bad things really happen in 3's? Seems I've heard that somewhere, and if it does, am I am now due for some good? See.. my mother passed away yesterday (Sun 9/13) from alzheimers. Even though we knew the end was coming, it still hits really hard. Today my brother and I made her final arrangements.. and as I drove the 2 hours back home I began to think about the whirlwind of change that has become my life. In July, my mortgage company said no to a pre-approved buyer for my house.. and foreclosed on me. I lost my house. In August I sat in a courtroom and watched a 20 year marriage end with a final divorce. It was 3 weeks later when I found the truth about her need to be with other men. Now in September I have watched my mother lose her battle with alzheimers, and now will bury her this Saturday. In 3 months, 3 major life changing, life shattering events. I don't know where to go from here. I feel so alone. I so want to believe that from here forward I will have some kind of good come into my life, but I can't help but feel a little jumpy. Anyone have life smack the crap out of you for a while, and still be able to turn it around? I'm afraid of what the next thing will be.
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