Have been married for 6 years, we are two very different people and what was attractive in the beginning is working against us now, has been for a while. My husband was smoking dope (and taken some harsher drugs when I frist met him) but I believed he was youger and once we really start a life as a couple he will stop, that is what he made me believe anyway. Six years later things could not be worse. I have tried everything I can, nothing has worked. I have no energy to continue, I love him still but I am not in love with him any more. He is a good person really but he is too selfish and he believes I am exaggerating with his dope habits. He drives about 100 km to have dope about 3 times a week. He was overseas some time ago and that is when things came into perpective for me, he was away and I did not really miss him, I did not miss all the dope stuff that comes with him being around. He came back and I sounded like he was going to change things, once again I believed him for a sec. He got off the plane and drove 100 km to have dope I came home to an empty house once again, the only difference was there were presents for me form the overseas trip. Nice but I did not care that much. Please tell me what you think. Does really everyone smoke dope nowdays, am I really that stupid and I can't see that is normal nowdays. Please keep me sane.
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