We had been together for 11 years, married for 7 of them. We had our ups and downs but thought we had gotten past them in most senses. We were planning a family I just had a miscarraige. He went away on business and suddenly deciced he didnt want children wanted to travel for a living and wasn't sure if he wanted to be with me but didnt want to make the decision there. I was devasted. He is saying it is becuase he never got over the fact that we cheated on eachother and I left him when things got out of control. He said he has been pretending it was good and wanted children these past 3 years but I can't believe someone could pretend that well. To cry fake tears to say he never felt closer. We bought a camper and a car this summer. We would be happy to get home to eachother at the end of the day. I feel horrible of my part in this but I cannot change it. He was to come home today but now it may be in the middle of January. He won't answer my calls so I stop calling and when he did call I tried to take the high road and be there for him as I friend becuase he is so far away. It's got to be hard. He said he lost all his money, I was incredibly worried for him - there are some really bad scams out there so I called his father to ask him to call his son and be there for him to make sure he is okay becuase he won't talk to me. Now he is so mad I did that and won't talk to me even more. he expects me to stay home and carry on as usual paying our bills etc but I feel like I can't even be here. Should I wait for his return and see if he sees us together or am I really just punishing myself with a relationship that hurts me. He is blaming everything on me and I am feeling the lowest point in my life. I feel like nothing. never mind the thoughts of him cheating on me? I just dont know how this could come out of the blue like this when we really have been happier and closer than ever. Something I know he couldn't have faked. Any thoughts would really help.
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