For the past couple days I've been stuck in a rough spot. I was doing really well, moving on and barely thinking about him until about three days ago when the desire to talk to him hit me. Nothing's come of it, we still haven't spoken and I'm doing all within my power to avoid him, but I've started to wonder what he's doing. Is he moving on? Has he found someone new? Was it really so easy to throw me away like that? All of those questions have been going through my head. I've started to miss him too. Not much, but a little. I'm not sure if its just loneliness or if I really do miss him. The relationship was awful and its a good thing that I'm out of it. I'm doing much better. And yet I still can't help but torture myself. I could really use some advice, anything to help pull me out of this rut. These thoughts aren't making me feel any better, in fact they're making things harder and I want to get back to not thinking about him and to healing. I'm afraid that the longer I'm stuck with these doubts and feelings the stronger the desire to contact him will be.
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