I don't know why now, but I have been so very sad for the last few days and I don't feel like I can shake it. I am on the verge of tears all the time. I go to bed, sleep, awake and I am ready to cry again. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and there is this big hole there. It seems as though nothing helps. I spent time with my children yesterday and I got home and had a breakdown. I am scared I am not going to come back to life ever again. I feel like my husband passed away. It is so hard to think of the things that have happened because I am so sad over this breakup. I was married 30 years. I spent 33 years with him, and now it is over. Who is going to want a 57 year old woman? I am trying to trust God in all of this it is so hard. I feel so lonely. I would never have thought I would be in this boat. I always thought that if we would ever break up I would have been the one to leave. I guess the laugh is on me. Thanks for listening.
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