I haven't posted much in the last few weeks as I have been trying to take some time for myself. I am now back and could use some support. My divorce was finalized on July 24th, ironically that was also my wedding anniversary, talk about coming full circle! I truly never felt that we would ever get to this place, I never gave up hope that we would reconcile, unfortunately hope wasn't enough. We went to court, the only thing that we had left to do was settle the issue of our house, went before the judge answered a few questions and were divorced. It was the hardest, most painful day of my life. Now that things are said and done, my ex has been calling, talking about how he felt pressured to get everything accomplished that day, he has regrets, wished we could of worked things out, sending me texts that he still loves me etc. I am not in the position where I can cut him out of my life, as we have a 2 year old daughter an he sees her for dinner 1x a week and everyother weekend. For the past 9 months I have almost avoided the fact I was getting a divorce, just pushed it to the back of mind and now that it has happened I am really grieving the loss. My pain is so raw right now.
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