Today begins my ex's first official visitation. She gets her 4 days a month, Thursdays and fridays. I did not know how hard this was going to be, I did not see it comming. Needless to say it did not go well. She pulls up to pick her up and in her infinite wisdom she decided to bring along her lover. Keep in mind my ex is 34 and decided to cheat on me with a 5 foot 350 pound 21 year old elf, no I am not exaggerating. I did not relize this fat little elf was in the car so you can imagine my surprise when this little fu** is setting there with a sh** eating grin on his face. I was so angered I was shaking, she asked me why and I told her I was cold. I could not say anything and I certianly could not do anything, Abigail was standing beside me happy to see her mother. I cannot tell you how I controlled my rage but this I can say I am almost at my limit. May god be my witness I swear on my life sooner or later me and fata** is going to bump into each other and Abby will not be there to save him. I have no doubt that I can ball this little elf up and roll him to the hospital and never even break a sweat. Yes I know, cops, jail, and everything else that comes with it, but I will feel so much better. There is no shrink alive that could make me feel that great. She even had the audacity to question my integrity and I just stood there and took it. You can call me names, you can screw with my head, you can even hit me, but there is one thing in life I cannot take and thats getting blaitently fuc*ed. Had you seen this kids smirk it was like a neon sign screaming he got the better of me. Still I did nothing. I just stood there with my tail between my legs and took it trying not to screw this up for Abigail. Kids I dont think I am going to be able to do this. I dont have the strength to hold back any longer. Tell me somthing, tell me somthing that will magically get me out of this nightmare. Or at very least tell me how to make that fat little elfs head explode without going to jail for life. God give me strength I dont think I can do this much longer, In my mind it is already inevitable...
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