I was married for 10 years to a man that was mentally and sexually abusive. We have two children together that are now 7 and 10 - and it's been a very long rocky road to the final agreement. After the divorce, I got involved with a man that I fell in love with and thought was everything that my ex was not. This person ended up being very controlling and had anger management issues. I discovered the relationship was not healthy. I ended the engagement and this person got very angry with me. A month after the break up - he broke into my house and held me captive for three hours. He was drunk out of his mind and at one point I thought he was going to kill me. The only thing that get me going through this event was that I knew it could not end here - I have two children that need me. He hurt me and eventually passed out due to the alcohol - and then I called the police. The charges are still pending against this person and I find myself with very high levels of anxiety and even after spending money on security for my home - will still wake up at the slightest noise thinking that someone is in my house. Just last night, the door bell rang at around 8:30pm and I was terrified to answer the door. My son at 10 years old - picked up on my anxiety and also got worried - so I called a neighbor and found out that it was a person wanting to talk about saving the environment. I never answered the door but was totally freaked out about how long that person stayed at the door. This web site is very large and I wasn't sure where to begin for help. I have not dated in 6 months and not interested in therapy and was thinking that a support group would be better help for me. Just looking for some suggestions on getting started.
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