Ok today before he left I was asking some pretty direct questions about his new life. Well that makes him uncomfortable to say the very least.. But it still has to feel better than the way I feel. So I told him he should just be happy that I have never asked him to come home. Well that didnt sit to well either.. His response was "I know, and you dont have to keep reminding me , I know" What is that? It wouldnt have done any good. Unless we were still playing some games I didnt know about. Also for me to ask him to come back would be for me to compromise myself. I guess I failed yet another of his secret games.. Even though I didnt even know the rules. Is that an ego thing? Or does anyone else think it would have helped.. I really dont.
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