Today I have felt the most deepest darkest despair I have ever felt thus far. My heart just keeps hurting. I think this past year just ruined my health. I had legal issues, and more legal issues, a sick mother and a painful divorce. I have tried very hard today to just do my best to deal with business at hand. Took the kids to the park, dealt with sub teaching issues. Holy crap the pain is just nagging at me, gnawing at me. I am feeling the deepest depression I have ever felt in my entire life. It truly feels like I am drowning. The sadness is sinking me to the point that I fear I will function no longer.
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