i will have to sit down with stbx soon and tell the boys whats going on. we have mediation on the 14th and so id like to come to an agreement then so we can tell them, finally and perhaps the azz will mmove out. i dont know if ive wrote about this b4 but i am deathly afraid to tell them and heres why. i have major depression and when i do get severely depressed (about 5 yrs since the last time) i isolate and totally shut down. the stbx stuffs his emotions TOTALLY. and so my worst fear is that the boys will stuff it as well or shut down and i am so scared. i know i have to be strong for them and GOD knows im trying hard but what if they wont talk to me after they know or do things that they need to do because they're so devestated. I think they know alot already cause the stbx and i ahave been legally seperated since june and we dont do ANYTHING together as a family since around then etc. i dont know, part of me thinks they wont be so shocked but the other part is so scared. what do i do? How do i handle it? any suggestions? We are going to tell them within the next couple weeks especially cause holidays are coming and i dont plan on going to his fam and he to my family gathering. they need to know. thay are 9 and 10
years old and they are my entire world. they are the best thing to me ever.