Well, I am on day 2 now. Tim is sick, I think he got that flu bug that I had a couple weeks ago. He gets sick so easily! I slept better than I thought I would, but then again, I was in my own bed. I did cry a little last night. This is my home, my room, my bed, my family. My insides dont want to break that up! But I know it can't go on like this!!! Before he left for work, he leaned over to kiss me. I made myself turn away. I reminded him that we made the discion to end this relationship, and that kissing me would only confuse me. It was hard, and I felt bad, and I really wanted to kiss him and just forget the whole thing! But, I have done that over and over again! He appologized and said it was a force of habit. I totally understand. For someone who said they weren't trying to win me back that seems strange. I wonder how long it will be before I cave in again!
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