I hate this! I'm sitting here crying because I didn't necessarily want our relationship to be over, but I didn't want it to keep going the way it was. I felt ignored, neglected, hurt, sad, and angrey all the time. So the stupid thing is I know it's for the best so why does it hurt so much now? Is it because I know see how final it really is? I feel as though I'm not worth the effort for any man that I've ever allowed into my life. So now I do look at myself and wonder what the hell is wrong with me. I know I'm having a pitty party, but for some dumb ass reason I can't help it. It hurts so much right now.
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