We had a session today, we were supposed to start reading a book but we did not get to talk about that, instead it was more like complaining about each other again. This time because yesterday before he was going to a beer festival I told him, "be careful, and don’t drink too much" oh, and I also asked who he was going with. i instead had a first communion with my kids... So apparently me telling me that yesterday is a reminder of how things can go back to the same and he does not want that, he wants freedom? He wants more me time and I want more of him and family time. Now he is blaming be for not letting him go for a run. I never said he can't it is just that we have kids and I think that things should be divided. Now he wants to go swimming 3 times a week. He says that the kids don’t have to see him every day. This does not sound like a person that wants to be married right?. I don’t know what are we playing. I will play along until my heart can't bear it and until it agrees with what my head already knows. It is very difficult to lose my world but I guess little by little I will realize that I will have to make the decision.
Very disappointed today... Why does he say he wants to stay and work for this marriage if all he wants is to change the conditions of the marriage and make them around him and his likes. I insist this is a midlife crisis and I don’t know if he will be able to pass this but on the other hand I feel I'm in the middle and I'm getting tired of this.
As soon as he leaves the therapy he calls me and wants to know if I’m ok. Also told me not to worry he will pick up the kids.
HEEEEEEELLLLLLPPPPPPP Just talk to me a little
I am at a better place with my ex and his wife than I have ever been. I can actually have a conversation with him on the phone and keep my cool. When either one of them does something annoying I just do an eyeroll, chalk it up to them being them, and move on with my life. What I'm struggling with is the double identity crisis. Years ago I went to going away party for my mother when she...
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