okay so a while i go i said about my ex an i broke up, it was devistating an still is! i try to act like i dont care, but i do, a lot. now he thinks i dont want to get back with him, which i think makes him want me more. i dont want to be w/ him just cause he cant have me, but because he loves me you know. when i se him sometimes, cause we are still good friends, he gets alllovey dovey but when he leaves it like goes away, he said its old habbits.. so the next time i seen him, he was doing it again, an i told him i didnt want him doing that cause its an old habbit like biting your finger nails, he said i misunderstood him so i dont know. if im not mistaken i think he's doing it out of lust not love. so anyhow, lately i have been meeting a lot of new people something i havent done in nearly two years (since i met michael)the problem is, i am back in the same situation i was in when i was younger, after the older men. im only seventeen an i am now dating or seeing a man that is 33 or something like that, a lot of poeple say my interest in older guys may be due to the fact that older men have abused me sexually, but that just doesnt make any sense! and this guy is almost the age of my dad! though its weird its what i like, i like older guys, ive tried dating younger men an it just doesnt seem like it works out, what do i do.. is it okay to be with someone that much older?
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