This is my last big hurdle. Gave up my career when my children were diagnosed with autism and multiple food allergies. It took me 2.5 years to really get on top of it physically and emotionally. Yea that was the final stress that broke our marriage--sbx thought all that was woman's work and why the heck was I so upset, overwhelmed and scared all the time. So he turned to pornography even more. Yea that makes me feel better--don't participate in life and reject me in everyother way. So you see myselfesteem is in the crapper. He's moved on to another woman so thowing me away is his main agenda. So Now I've got to distrupt my kids schedules and security quick dump them in after school daycare and all day daycare for the other and get a job. (This will be monumentally difficult for my autistic son--his security is the routine). So I print out the resume and look at the jobs. I'm justs so devistated. I was let go from my last part time job because I was rusty. I've had no energy to study until recently. I feel doomed. I don't know how to put myself out there only to be told Im inadequate and need to study. (I'm a physician assistant--it's like a nurse practitioner we do the same job). I need to work but I feel like I'm gona get eaten alive. The anxiety is terrible---lawyer says I'm running out of time. Thoughts?
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