I won't repeat my entire story here. The short version is, I was very self centered for most of our marriage. I cheated twice, once sexually and once emotionally. I came clean about the last affair, the emotional one, in December of 2006, we separated in Feb. 07, I moved out so the constant fighting wouldn't completely tear us apart. I continued to try and convince my wife without any real changes, that I had changed. Well, I finally started making the changes I needed to 3 weeks ago. At this point, she has told me that when I left, she put her walls back up and now feels nothing for me. This morning, she agreed that the feelings are probably still there, but she won't let herself feel them. She said if I had left her alone the first month of our separation, things would probably be different now. She has a lawyer drawing up the divorce papers this week. I have disrespected her over the last 5 years. At times, I was a good husband, but others, I was so self centered that no one mattered but me. My wife and I have begun to regain our friendship, even through this, but she is adiment that she has to have the divorce. I am working very hard to feel, really feel, what I have put her through the last years. I know , a little of what she has felt now and I am completely heart broken. I am now faced with the reality that if I would have made the same progress I am making now, 6 weeks ago, I might have saved my marriage. Some still say there's a chance, others say to let her go. I have no choice but to let her go, but I can't stop loving her or feeling her pain at this point. Any women been in this situation? I could really use the support today.
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