I am still in disbelief with what occurred to me. I am doing much better right now. However, there are days I just sit on my bed and scratch my head wondering what happened. My fianc proposed in April 2008. We were (I thought) in love. At least my love for him was sincere and strong. I do not know what happen but my fianc began to get shady in Nov 08 and ended up breaking up with me in Dec 08. However, an hour after the break up he cried and begged me for forgiveness. Saying he is under stress with wedding expenses and did not mean it. I believed him and suggested we have a small wedding or just postpone the wedding. My priority was the relationship not the wedding. Funny thing is at that point the only one that had paid for wedding expenses ($7,000) was I. He was under stress because he had not saved a dime. Our wedding was supposed to be in May 2009. Well what happens, he breaks up with me for good in Feb 09 in the coldest, cruelest way possible. He sent me a one line text "I love you but I don't want to get married." I did not see him or speak to him. I tried to speak to him but he would just ignore me until June 09. He sent me a text telling me, he got married and wants my engagement ring. Those words caused me physical pain. I was so devastated it was worst than the break up. I did not want to believe it but it is true. He got married to a woman with two kids within a month of knowing/reuniting (I do not know for sure if it is an ex or a new girl) with her. He even managed to relocate her to the state he resides in. This is not the man I fell in love with! How/Why, would someone be so deceptive, cold and uncompassionate? How could he supposedly been in love with me and marry another girl 2 weeks after our scheduled wedding. Leave me with broken dreams, broken heart, confused, hurt, and out $7,000. What was the point in causing me so much pain?
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