It will be a year December 1, since that faitfull day. The day that ended my old life and began my new life or the so called life I lead now. The vision of where I thought i'd be in a year is not here. Where am i ......... still lonelyness fills my days. It was a bad marriage from day one.... I was always made to feel less of and to stuff those violent one sided fights never shared them with my closets friends.... I lived for my children ..... now their gone for a whole week no contact....... and no reason to live on those weeks.....I tried church today to escape the lonelyness.... don't feel like it worked.... I've tried to fake it until I make it.... but the sadness and lonelyness have wrapped around me like a black cloud... I thought in a year it will all be ok I would be ok .. the year is almost here and I miss my daughters and life I thought I would have...does anyone know when you become ok? When you find peace and your not lonely anymore?
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