Seems everything I have done thinking it would help only made things worse for myself and I am sure her. There is no sense of right and wrong this situation. Everything you think is right is wrong everything that is wrong is right????? It is enough to drive anyone crazy. When is it wrong to stand up in what you believe in? It isnt, it just when it doesnt matter to the other person it doesnt help. Normal logic does not apply everything is backwards. I need to stop my head from spinning. I need to believe that the love I have to give will be accepted by one that can return it. I need to know that I can trust another. I need to know that love is important and that people believe in it and just dont up and turn around one day and say I am not in love anymore. We as a society need to stop looking for the easy way out. We abusive love like it is something that is disposable. We dont see the true form of it. I am not saying that I ever saw the true form but I know much more now what it is and how to keep it. I get there are people out there who just dont get the hang of it and you wonder if they go through life and ever really feel satisfied with what they have. I am tired, I fought for love and I have done things that I thought would make a difference, but in the end I must accept that it is time to quit on her as she has quit on me. Now I must get ready for the ugliness of divorce and the anger I will cause to her. I did not choose this and she will have to know that. I have proven that I was willing to save all of this from happening. She must now expect the fate that she wants. I am sorry that it will come to this. My friends I will need your on going support during this next round. I hope for a peaceful end but her behavior for tells a struggle. Pray for me and my children and even for my wife so that we may resolve this respectfully.
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