I was dating a guy for a little over 2 years when he broke up with me 2 weeks ago. We have been together since our junior year in high school and promised each other we'd get married. Needless to say, I am struggling greatly with this. Yesterday was the day I decided to give up. We broke up because we fought almost once a week, but we were torn because we had so much love for each other. Every time I saw him (we have a class together), both of us would cry. Today is the last day of that class and I'm so scared to go in there and leave knowing that it's the last time I'll see him. Friends isn't an option for us; I'd never get over him. He wasn't strong enough for me and he made rash decisions that I didn't approve of. I know this relationship was all wrong, but for the past two weeks I had the motivation of completely transforming it, and I prayed about it. I prayed to God that all I needed was one last chance, because when people break up they forget the flaws of the relationship. I tried to talk to my boyfriend about it but he refused and said he wanted to believe me but that it was over. I still believed he wanted to be with me, and he told me that he did'nt break up with me to move on, but he did it because he didn't want to be treated the way I treated him. Then, I found out that he went on a date with someone else within the past two weeks. It really hurts, and I'm having a hard time coping. I know that it's over, but it's so hard to accept the fact, especially when we were so close. He was my very best friend, and now he's gone. He doesn't know that I know he went on a date with another girl, and I never want to know who the girl is. But I'm just so hurt. I'll be seeing him in class and I don't know what to do-- I know that I cannot talk to him, but I do not want to cry in front of him. I want to give the image that I am fine, but I also want him to know that he broke my heart by dating so soon. I just need some support, advice, anything. Anything will be greatly appreciated.
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