Almost 30 years of marriage, family thought I was crazy getting married at 18 I thought it would last forever until my stbx got addicted to doctor given narcotic pain killers. It changed him so much and I use to beg him to go to rehab and get off them but , he never would , he changed so much . The last 2 years of my marriage were lonely ones , he use to sit in a room and never even come out for meals I took him everything he needed . When ever I went to try to talk to him he just sat playing stupid games on his computer and didnt even acknowledge I was there I did everything for him and now wondering if I hadnt of done that for him would we still be together . I blame myself because I think I enabled his drug addiction by not telling him to get up and do something for himself 2 months ago I couldnt handle his silence anymore and blew up and told him I needed attention and told him if he didnt try to go get help with his addiction he could go and find someone else to put up with it ... I went to work that day and when I came home I found him gone . I blame myself for trying to talk him into getting some help which he did not want . I just wanted things to be the way they were before his addiction . Is this wrong ? Am I to blame ? Is the hell I am going threw now my punishment for what I thought was trying to help him ?
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