So here I sit. Late at night and thinking about my marriage, working on it and dating. My marriage is pretty much gone. We never see each other because he moved like 2 hours away and we are both working full time jobs, he's unreliable, irresponsible, a liar and the love of my life. Sounds funny I know. I still have a deep love for him but it's not the love a wife should have for her husband. He feels the same way about me, and I just don't see us having a shot at truly working on our marriage. So now comes the dating part. Even when a guy hits on me, I feel guilty like I'm betraying him some how. I'm still pretty sure he's cheated on me and everyone here has said I should go with my gut and that is what it's saying. When I try and plan to meet someone, I start feeling guilty. Has anyone else felt this way when they tried to start dating again??? Am I stupid for this?? Will I ever stop feeling so damn guilty?!? I hate this because I know that if he were in my shoes if he hasn't been seeing someone already that he wouldn't feel this way. I hate this!
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